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29 February 2008 @ 10:49 pm
I have a bad habit.

I have noticed a pattern. A very big pattern with it's faults. It seems that I cannot maintain a blog.

And the reason as to why I can't has made itself known... finally.

I hate listing my interests and putting little thingies in profiles and trying to make the journal look awesome and inviting, like a lot of people do. It's just not me. And when I do these things, after a while I just stop participating because I feel like I'm selling myself... sorta... kinda... in a way.

I hate friending people who I don't even know, because, while I wouldn't mind being a friend, I don't feel like I am a friend. Putting things in your profile and listing your interests and finding someone of the same persuasions isn't what makes a friendship. Sure, it helps it, but it's not what makes it. This is why I have these abondon-the-blog issues.

I want to be a good friend, I really do, but I can't be unless I feel a click, you know? I don't want to list a person as a friend unless I know I can be that persons friend, and when I prematurely list that person as a friend, I find that I feel pressured into doing that which I don't like to do. It's not the persons fault, it's mine, and I'm really sorry for doing this to everyone. I really didn't even know about it.

In a nutshell, what I'm trying to say is, I wanna date you guys. :D That way I'll know if I can be a good friend to you, and if I can't be, then we'll be on friendly terms, you know. I'm sure that I could be a good friend to you all, but it just takes time. I know that's what the whole "friending" is for, so you can get to know someone better. But if you have a personal journal that you keep under lock and friend this person, then they're seeing the very personal side of me that I'm just not ready for them to see. I do believe that's why I have difficulty writing about my personal life.

I'm really sorry for doing this to you all. I've not been a very good person at all to you, much less a good friend.

So, as stupid and corny as this sounds, yes I have a new journal. *insert eyeroll* . However, this new journal has a community to which I may post my artistic endeavors on. I know that one of these days I'll get all my fanfic done. When I do, you'll guys know because then I'll start posting it again on FF.net :D

If you guys wanna know the journal, then great, if not, then it's understandable. Completely. Because I'm pretty sure that I've just p*ssed some of you off, if you're not already.

Please keep in mind that this, in no way, is reflecting badly on you. I think you guys are great, I really do, but I just don't feel that connection to where I could be a good friend to you all and I don't want to string you guys all up in my bad habit. Maybe we'll be good friends, I don't know. It would be great, even, but I just don't think having 'Lbyrinth' and 'David Bowie' in common (and a few other things) is enough to form a good friendship between us.

You know what I mean?

I don't wanna know just what you like and dislike, I wanna know you as you. That, I think, is what makes a good friend. Knowing someone as them and liking them for who they are instead of just their likes and what you and them have in common.

I'm rambaling.

This is so difficult to put into words while still being viewed as polite... though I think I'm beyond redemption on the polite business.

I'm sorry for promising things and not delivering, I truly am, and (incase we should part ways) in a few weeks this journal should be deleted, so you won't have to worry about me popping up again in your lives if you don't want me to.
 
 
27 October 2007 @ 11:01 pm
This is so hilarious! I love it. It's a really odd fan vid, but it'll at least make you smile.

Snap - Hermione's Naggin'
 
 
Mood: giggly
 
 
21 October 2007 @ 02:16 am
This is just little crazy things I'd like to do, just for the heck of it, because of certain events have made me realize just how fragile human life is, how short it can be, and yet how long it can stretch out. I just think it's odd, sitting here with that thought, to be afraid of anything when you can die at any moment, of any day, and in just about any way.

Even an alien invasion. :D

So you should do the things that you really want to do, right? The small, insignificant things that would just make you glad you did them if you're lying on the ground bleeding to death from a car wreck or in the hospital getting chemo. All these tiny little things that you either were afraid to do or just didn't have the time or didn't even think of them. It is worth the time to think about and invest in, right?


WARNING: Beware, there's a lot of 'I want/I'd like'... so I'll probably sound like a jack@$$. WARNING

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30 August 2007 @ 01:05 am
I made these a long while ago for a challenge that I was unable to complete. I'm kinda proud of them, hence why I'm showing them off.

Please save and upload the icon to your own photo account. There are dozens around and they're easy to join. Please credit. No stealing, it's very rude and just sad. No editing without permission. Comments are not required, but I love them. They help me to determine which ones you guys like and which ones you don't. In other words, they help with the craft of making icons.

Anyway, enjoy!

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Music: Mr. Krinkle -- Primus
 
 
01 August 2007 @ 12:58 am
Title: Nothing at All
Author: Newbornson
Rating: Friendly
Genre: Angst; AU; Post X1; One-Shot
Word Count: 792
Summary: It was nothing, nothing at all.
Disclaimer: I own the moth that just flew out of my pocket.
AN: This was written on a dime, so don't expect anything ingeniously written. You shouldn't expect that from me anyway, to be frank.

Plus, I write this because it wouldn't leave me alone until I did so, thus hindering the rest of me writing.

Grr...

P.S. It isn't mandatory (that would be silly), but I would like it if you reviewed, even if to only tell me that you thought it sucked. I'm not a mind reader, so I have no idea if y'all like it, hate it, or what. I'm not asking for a "It was frakin' AWESOME", but more along the lines of a constructive nature. That's all I really ask, because, how else am I suppose to become a better writer if no one tells me anything? 0.o


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Music: Nothing at all - Rob Dougan